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del tange inja bodam..

safhei ke vase tanhaiam seda mikone mano va dame gosham zamzame mikone ke ahaaaaaaay man injamaaaa...

asr ba dai vasatie raftim rejim begirim ...

dr esho dost dashtam..

shabihe jele tootfarangi bod;)

music gosh mikonam alan,,,

ajib etemad be nafsi mide bem:D

baz ham dorogh goftam:d

khastam az bas ke vase bazi az masaleh natonestam rastesho begam,,,

delam mikhad be hame migoftam rahat harfamo..

dost nadaram emsal tavalod begiram ama engari 2 rooz dg majboram inkaroo anjam bedam...

hoselasho nadaram,:d

yani hoselaaaashonooooooooooo nadaram;)

shab bayad ba ana miraftam sham biroon ama mashin nadashtam:(

fada saram az ye modat dg miram baz:D

manam khobamam

azab vejadan daram vase harfi ke be dai kochike zadam sare maraseme khastgarish:(

kash az hamoon aval migoftesh na ..

na hala bad az ye modat ashnai...

khoda konen nashkaste bashe delsh...

!

beram barchasb biaram be goshim bezanam:))

ye kocholop khaz bazi bad nist...

kheili vaghte ketab nakhondam...

bayad in ketabe erfane eslamio tamom konam,,,

tosh az memari ham dare:)

hora hora hora:d

dost daram khodamo fekr konam:):*

shabam rangi rangi...

+ نوشته شده در  سه شنبه بیست و هشتم شهریور 1391ساعت 20:41  توسط تارا | 
del tang shodn:

be donbale manai barayash migardam..

che zod moteradefash faramoshi mishavad...

framoshi:

che zod moteredefash tanhai mishavad,,,

to binahayate door vaghti negahat mikhandid chashmaye khireye to andohamo nemidid..

chera gharibe bodi

ba ghorbate negaham,,,

...

khandeam migirad az alfazam,,,

aya mane ensan ba tabahi be takomol miresam???

agar ari pas chera ham aknoon be in omgh khala ra ehsas mikonam,,,

aya in vaghean khala mahsob mishavad barayam,,,

shayad ham noghte chini ke man bayad por konam jaye khaliash ra...

ama chegone?!

kash raha mishodam az pasokhq be in soal...

lotfan mese hamishe komakam kon,,

har chand ke kheili vaghte be hashiye rafti...

ba shoma hastam khoda ha,,,

..

..

..

man montazerm...

hamin ja..

ro hamin noghte...

garmaye negaheto hes mikonam,,,

 

+ نوشته شده در  پنجشنبه بیست و سوم شهریور 1391ساعت 22:44  توسط تارا | 
deltangihayam ra az koja benevisam,,,

va az kodamin noghte baz aghaz...

negaham be atfi miandishad ke dir hengamist ke entezarash ra mikeshad,,,

 va che gharibane

migardad be donbalash...

rozhayam az pase ham migozarad,,,

va man inja be tamasha neshasteam,,,

che ba shetab miravand az peye ham,,,

va che nabavarane rahayam mikonand dar  in sarabe vahm alood...

gahi shad..

va gahi ghmanak...

tahvilam tamam shod va man shayad dar peye shoroi digar,,,

shoro...!!

angizaema ra khaham yaft..

hamin roozha shayad..

shayad dar dele derakhte gilasi penhan bashad,,,

va shayad chon ghonche hanooz nashkofte ast,,,

shayad chon torobcheye ghermez ke mara hamvare shegeft zade mikonad dar dele siahe khak penhan ast...

in rozha ajab rozhaist...

  emrooz danestam ke 

man

mane man

hanooz entekhab nakardeam masiram ra...

va man hamchenan peyro rahe kasani hastam ke khod niz donbale ro bodeand,,,

inja be joz tabahi nakhahad bod..

masiram ra khodam khaham sakht...

hata be gheymate gozashtan z toooooooo

 

+ نوشته شده در  سه شنبه بیست و یکم شهریور 1391ساعت 22:36  توسط تارا | 
deltangihayam ra az koja benevisam,,,

va az kodamin noghte baz aghaz...

negaham be atfi miandishad ke dir hengamist ke entezarash ra mikeshad,,,

 va che gharibane

migardad be donbalash...

rozhayam az pase ham migozarad,,,

va man inja be tamasha neshasteam,,,

che ba shetab miravand az peye ham,,,

va che nabavarane rahayam mikonand dar  in sarabe vahm alood...

gahi shad..

va gahi ghmanak...

tahvilam tamam shod va man shayad dar peye shoroi digar,,,

shoro...!!

angizaema ra khaham yaft..

hamin roozha shayad..

shayad dar dele derakhte gilasi penhan bashad,,,

va shayad chon ghonche hanooz nashkofte ast,,,

shayad chon torobcheye ghermez ke mara hamvare shegeft zade mikonad dar dele siahe khak penhan ast...

in rozha ajab rozhaist...

  emrooz danestam ke 

man

mane man

hanooz entekhab nakardeam masiram ra...

va man hamchenan peyro rahe kasani hastam ke khod niz donbale ro bodeand,,,

inja be joz tabahi nakhahad bod..

masiram ra khodam khaham sakht...

hata be gheymate gozashtan z toooooooo

 

+ نوشته شده در  سه شنبه بیست و یکم شهریور 1391ساعت 22:36  توسط تارا | 
emrooz 19 shahrivare...

kash az khoda film migreftam..

inke faghat ta farad chand saat baghi monde va man hata hanooz tarahi nakrdam,,,

jaleb ijast ke midona karam behtarin mishe:d

omid..

shayad ham bikhiali...

har chi ke hast tahe delam ye chi najva mikone ke hame chi khob pish khahad raft":)

+ نوشته شده در  یکشنبه نوزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 18:23  توسط تارا | 
delam mikhahad matnhaye ghabliam ra dobare type konam...

engari ke javabeshan ra hanooz nagerefteam,,,

delam mikhahad soalatam ra dar gozare zaman faramosh nakonam...

rasti emrooz zohr nahar che khordeam,,,

hafezeye kotah modatam shabihe gold fish kamtar 3 sec shode ast?

in khob ast va ya bad?

nemidanam,,,

hame cgi barayam hamin ghaleb ra gerefte ast..(khob ya bad)

agar man haghe entekhab dashtam migoftam hichkodam,,

har kar ke delam bekhahad mikonam:D

+ نوشته شده در  پنجشنبه شانزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 22:16  توسط تارا | 
gahi az didane yek sms khoshhal mishavam,,

az didane yek nam,,

az shenidane yek salame sade...

az rah raftan dar yek masire tekrari...

kalamatam che sade milaghzand bar roye in safhe,,

va gahi yek tars vojodam ra fra migirad,,,

az inke aya in salam ra bayad pasokh goo mibodam va ya,,,

hame chiz be shekle ajibi dar ham gereh khorde ast..

delam baraye chashmanam misozad,,,

che masomane be in monitor ha khire mishavand,,

jahan ra kholase  mibinand aya dar in ghabe mostalilie kochak,,,

khob chist va bad chist,,,

hamishe bad ra ingone midanam ke yek chize khob dar jaye monaseb nist,,

va khob ra inke yek amre khob dar jaye khob,,

hame chiz ghanoone ehtemal ast,,,

va man dar in mian tanha naghshe an khate taghsime ashari ra daram,,

ke 2 bakhsh ra az ham joda mikonad,,

bar hichkodam hich naghshi nadaram,,

aya bayad khoshhal basham,,,

hame chiz be nazar aram miayad,,

aya vaghean aram ast?

shak!!!

shabihe bomb mimanad va nabod gare hame chiz ast...

hata aramesh ham agar bashad range tardid mibakhshad be an,,

rage khakestarie tardid ra,,,

.

.

.

.

mikhandam bi shaaaaaaaak!

+ نوشته شده در  پنجشنبه شانزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 18:29  توسط تارا | 

cheghadr sardam ast,,

angoshtanam yakh basteand,,

selolhayam kristal shodeand,,,

nore cheraghe motale ham digar garma bakhsh nist....

in rast ast ke dar tariki garma nist????

ama man khorshide sard ra ham dideam,,,

baz ham haman solae hamishegi:

az koja shoro konam,,,

kash yek neda miamad az daroon ke

shayad rahnemon mikard mara..

ke az hamin noghte aghazgar bash...

yadam ast jomlei ke migoft:

khoda zamin ra modavar afarid ta be ensan begoyad dorost hamaaan noghte ke fekr mikoni be payan residei hamanja noghteye aghaz ast...

dastam ra ba cutter borideam,,

tebghe mamole hamishe..

rasti farda chand shanbe ast??

cheghadr rozha shabihe hamadn,,,

pas chera esmeshan motafavet ast,,

chera masalan nemigoim bejaye 2shanbe shanbe,,,

ingone shayad movafaght tar ham bodim akahr taghvime karie hameye ma az shanbei ke hichgah fara nemiresad aghaz mishavad,,

.

.

.

yade ye ahange ,,,

:Dchertopert oftadam to zehnam ke migoftesh:

hava sarde hava sarde..havaye in rabete sarde...

ba ye lahne loos ham mikhonda

ignore kardan ra baraye hamin mavaghe gozashteand khob..

baraye anke hame ra ignore konim...

boye adamsam rra dost daram..

sabz ast..

mese ghorbaghe....

"d

jahidan,,,!
baz ham mese ghorbaghe,,

che mojode fantezi hastesha...

ba an chashmane vargholombide,,

shayad mikhast jahan ra behtar bebinad,,

shayad fekr mikard ingoone behtar bebinad,,

hajme bishtari az jahan ra dar khod jay dahad,,,

ama darigh,,

in jahan jaygahash chashme ensan nist,,,

be rasti chashme ensan jaygahe chist gheyr az jamale mashogh!!??

baz ham tarjih midaham nazaram ra baraye khodam nigah daram,,

zengi migozarade..

delam mikhahad dar javabe in jomle begooyam:

eeeeeee che jaleb jedaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!

ama man ehsas mikonam zendegi sabet ast,,

in ma hastim ke dar gozarim,,

hata gahi jesmeman migozarad ama aghleman saken mimanad,,

choon ab,,ke migandad roheman boye taafon migirad...

che fazaye moshmaez konande ist

:puke!

:D

khoda ma ra dost dasht ke khab ra be ma eta kard,,

ingone har gah ke zehn rahe farari nadsht mitavan be khab ferestadash va ta binahayat ravaneash kard,,,

pas miravam ke bekhabam...

shab khosh:*

+ نوشته شده در  چهارشنبه پانزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 21:17  توسط تارا | 
merci khoda joon,,,merci:*
+ نوشته شده در  چهارشنبه پانزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 15:50  توسط تارا | 
aghebat ashkamo man ye roozi pak mikonam,,'

dashtam be in fekr mikardam masalan 5 sale dg man koja gharar khaham dasht...

vaghti in pago bekhonam,,

momkene ye asre paeezi ke hava sarde va man livane ghahvam dastame va ye panchoye sabz ba shale sorati sarame va roberom mize karame va koli naghshe va plan kenarame a ye makete az ye mojtame maskoni roye mizam va dar halike hava abrie ama midonam ke aftab hastesh darm be monitore laptopam nigah mikonam va in posto mikhonam,,

dar hamin heyn s,m zang mizane va mige vase sham berim biroon?

bva man migam are ama ghablseh ayad karamo tamom konam

khejalat keshidam inaro neveshtam...

ama midonam hamash mishe,,,

:d

alan kheili khoshhalam,,,

chon midonam khoshbakht misham:*

 

+ نوشته شده در  چهارشنبه پانزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 15:50  توسط تارا | 

aya az man relax tar va bikhial tar kasi ham hast dar jahan,,

in sola be jarfaye hoshe bashari omgh darad,,

3 rooz ta tahvil mande va na hanooz maket daram va na hata taaaaaaaaaaarh,,,,

bekhandam ya begeryam,,

alan mikhandam bad gerye mikonam,,

ke hadeaghal yek taraf barayam shadi bakhsh bode bashad,,,

shoro konam az emrooz asr..

lotfan

lotafan shoro kon,,,

 

+ نوشته شده در  سه شنبه چهاردهم شهریور 1391ساعت 12:17  توسط تارا | 
zaman migozarad,

tik

tik

tik

sedaye kyeboardam delneshin ast..

garmaye laptop bar roye pahayam ra dost nadaram,,,

ehsas mikonam ta omghe selolhayam ra misozanad,,

ama khob rahe digari be zehnam nemiresad ke betavan khabide type kard,,,

karhayam pish miravad,,

cheshmanam ra khire negah dashteam be saghf,,

goshayesh az koja sorat migirad,,,?

az omghe ranjo alame dard..

yaghob dard mikeshid az hejran,,,

ama key bod ke yosof ra yaft,,?

an dam ke oo ra raha kard,,,

an dam ke digar nayazord khod ra,,,

az entehaye dardo ranj

didar moyasar shod...

nemikhaham be an fekr konam:D

faghat mikhaham bekham,,

medam sangin ast va goi az mede yek nakh be kerkereye chashmanam motasel ast,,,

hamin ke an sangin mishavad in yeki be pain keshide mishavad,,,

bayad lake nakhonhayam ra pak konam,,

az rangash khosham nemiayad,,

pas rasti baraye che zadam!!?

ahan yadam amad,,,

tanavooo

ama in bishtar be tahavooo shabih ast ta tanavoo

;)

cheghadr esm doro baram reje miravand ,,

mikhaham gheychi ra bardam  va hameye anhara az atrafam gheychi konam,,'nemikhaham chon kalafi ta hamishe be man motasel bemanand,,,

jadidan yek bazi yad gereftam,,,

zehnam ra baraye lahzei stop mikonam...

avalin kalame ke az an gozasht raje be an fekr mikonam va bahs,,

masalan alan ahmagh rad shod:D

fekr konam khodam be khodam fohsh dadam:)

che bishakib shodeam man,,,

bayad khod ra shakiba tar konam,,,

matin tar dar barabare in zehne sarkesh

:D

man bekhabam dg,,,

in neveshte bishtar shabhe khatere shod ,,khob che eybi dare inja man,,,zehne verraje man,,page man,,,

khodahafeziiiiiiiiiiiii

:*

 

+ نوشته شده در  دوشنبه سیزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 13:58  توسط تارا | 
saat 12:12

gahi ma dokhtarha fekr mikonim agar zaman ingone elam shavad yani kasi darad be ma miandishad,,

cheghadr na khoshbavarim,,

shayad ham ahmagh,,

shayad ham mehrban,,,

daram karhaye hafteye ayandeam ra amade mikonam,,

ostad ke tahdid kard,,

mohem nist digar,,

man ba eshgh karam ra anjam midaham,,

har anche ke tavanestam,,

vi fekr be digaran,,

inja man hastam,,

va faghat man mohem hastam

:D

maghroor!!

na in tanha chizist ke nadaram,,,

dashtam emrooz be mozoi fekr mikardam..

inke barayam jaleb bod ke harkas che mikhahad az in zendegi,,,

be man rabtai nadarad!

nakhonhayam chasbi shodeh and,,,

hichvaght natavanestam zarif maket besazam,,,

,,,

:))

che mishavad kard,,shayad in niz sabki ast az sakhte noi jadid az maket,,,

nahar nemikhaham vali kash jayash beravam va shokolat bokhoram,,,

kheili vaght azt chips nakhordeam:D

khodam ra dost daram,,hamingone ke hastam,,,

digaran che ahamiati darand,,anha ke gahi mikhahamd va gahi na,,

gahi mishkanand va gahi band mizanand...

na,,,

inbar faghat khodam ahamiat daram,,,

:*

 

+ نوشته شده در  دوشنبه سیزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 12:23  توسط تارا | 

va sobhi digar aghaz mishavad,,

va baz khorshid ba negahi por az konjkavi be daroone otagham hamle var,,

negahash sar ast,,

inra man niz hes kardeam,,,

delem ke migirad tavane tamame lahazatist ke del mibandam,,,

delam yek ghalbe sabz mikhahad,,

va yek aseman ba rah rahaye sorati rang,,,

va yek derakhte banafash,,,

ba shokofehaye albalooi rang,,,

delam tafaoot mikhahad..

az koja shoro konam emrooz ra ke nahayatash ra birahe nependaram,,,

az daroon khali mishavam va bare digar por..

kash saat ha hichgah adade 10 ra neshan nemidadand,,,

va hamishe saat 6 baghi mimand,,,

va asr ha saat 3 mimand,,,

va shabha saaat hamishe 12..

az che farar mikonam be koja!

be hichestan,,,

na pochestan

:D

in behtar ast,,,,

bayad komod ra khob varasi konam,,

shayad parnian haye 7 rang an too bashand,,,

bayad lebasi no bedozam,,

man be jash davat shodeam,,,

jashne roozmaregiha,,

ama

in ke aza mikhahad,,,

va na jashn!!

:))

shayad za hambe in mobadal gashte ast,,,

bayad be donya bekhandam,,,

bayad oo ra az roo bebaram,,

man mikhaham az oo ghavi tar basham,,,

har che bada bad...

na..

digar na,,,

man to ra shekesat midaham,,,

hata digar solhe mosaleat amiz ham na,,,

man tora shekast midaham,,,

 

+ نوشته شده در  دوشنبه سیزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 9:3  توسط تارا | 
mesle kodakani ke bikhab shode and baleshtam ra mohakam tar dar aghosh mikesham,,

khabide type mikonam,,

engari mokhatabam digar mohem nist..

kami maghroro shavim,,,

aslan che kasi mohem tar az man,,,

ah ke ba in dorogh cheghadr az roozhaye omram ra hadar dadam man,,,

az man mohem tar ham bod engar...

chashmahai ke man chashmahayam ra be soyeshan bastam,,

axash ra emshab be hani neshan dadam,,

khandidi va goft ke man divabedam,,,

va in ra ham goft ke che tavahomati daram man,,

rast migoft man baz ham dar tavahomatam seyr mikardam,,

mikhaham bidam sham va begoyam gore babaye donya,,

midanam ke kheili ha in az zehneshan migozarad ama chera anra boland bayan nemikonand,,,

ingone donya az hamye ma mitarsid,,

az hameye ma ensanhai ke oo ra hich be hesab nemiavarim,,,

oo poch ast,,

agar poch ast pas man chera zendeam,,

chera bayad rah beravam,,begoyam bekhandam va zar bezanam,,,,

khodya kash to hobot mikardi be samte man,,

magar na inke eshgh ashegho mashogh nemishenasad,,,

bia in paeen va aznazdik ba man bash,,,

va dar an dadgah begoo be man dalilam ra,,

ahh nakonad az dadgah mitarsi,,

va shayad ham tabe movajehe ba man ra nadari,,

midanam ke ashghi,,

ama ghol midaham ziad negahat nakonam ke delat aram giriad,,

ta behal beto gofte bodam in jomlara:

ke cheghdr dostat daram,,

baz ham migoyam:

dostat daram yeganeye man,,,

mishavad man tora khoda seda nazanam,,

nam...

dar nam nemigonji akhar to,,,,

faratar az hameye namhai...

delam mikhahad fagghat beboyamat va dar havayat nafas bekesham,,

anghadr ke az hosh beravam,,

ba baz ba haman bo be behosh biayam,,

ama mikhaham be mab ghol dahi ke bare digar ke be hosh amadam dar aghoshe to basham,,

man donyara nemikhaham,,,

man tamame tora mikhaham,,,

tamame tamame to ra:*

 

+ نوشته شده در  دوشنبه سیزدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 0:13  توسط تارا | 
daghigahn nemidanam ama chand roze digar tavalodam ast...

aya emsal tavalod khaham gereft...

aya kasi mikhahad az tahe tahe del mara shad konad,,

aya sobh ke bidar mishavam dar peye yek hayejan khaham bod,,,

??????????????????????????

nemidoanam,,

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhj]

badam miayad digar az in kalamt,,

az in nadanestanha,,,

mesle kodakan shodeam,,

zendegiam por az roozmaregi..

shayad behtar bashad nagooim zendegi,,,

heife name zibayash ast,,,

ghahghahe nemikhaham,,,

man be labkhand raziam,,,,

az delvapasi ha khasteam,,

az delhoreha,,,,

va az hameye deltangiha,,,,,

delam tang ast,,,

bi bahane,,,

baraye che kasi ra nemidanam..

ama midanam ke tang ast,,,

hata az dahane morche ham tang tar,,,

 

+ نوشته شده در  یکشنبه دوازدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 22:45  توسط تارا | 
va baz ham neveshtan tanha bahaneye aramesh shod,,,

masvak mizanam,,

va baz ham mesvak mizanam,,,

va baz ham,,

engari dahanam mitarsad az kalamati ke da daronash miraghsand,,,

che raghse faribandei,,,

ama in tanha raghse marg ast,,,

ah ke che khob mitavam manaye vajeye mazlomiat ra dar aghosh kashid,,,

va che khob mitavan dark kard ke ensan ta che andaze tanhast,,,

an dam ke laptop behtarin dost mishavad,,,

shayad chon aram ast,,,

va shayad chon man tarsoo,,,

tars az haghighat,,

be rasti kodamyek haghighat ast,,

man,,,ya jahan ,,,

jahan!!!

man khod jahanam ama kash niaz be esbat nabood...

kash afkaram az reshteye tahriri kharej mishod va be amal mirasid,,,

khandam dar jai ke ghatar agar az reyl kharej shavad azad migardad ama bi masir,,,

man azadi ra mikhaham hata agar masir nadashte basham,,,

raha az har bandi,,,

band ra sokhan mana mikonam,,,

har bar ke az har dahani mishnavam jomlei del kharash ra,,,

kash gosh kharash bodand...

ama kari be delam nadashtand,,,

mikhaham shoro konam,,,

ama goi be donbale bahanei hastam,,,

ta baz ham raked beshinam,,,

ama ta be key rokod...mitarsam dar in goshe az otagh begandam,,

va boye  taafonam digaran ra dor...

harchand ke in tanha rahist ke felan baraye dor kardane digaran be zehnam miresad,,

dar otagham ra ghofl kardeam,,

mikhaham be zehnam in etminan ra bedaham ke ta vaghti oo bekhahad ma inja tanha hastim,,

ari man va man,,

shayad ham man va oo...

oo kasisit ke dar majaz zendegi mikonad,,,

man man kasi ke be oo hesadat mikonam dar vagheiat...

boye kotlet miayad...

fekr konam madaram kotlet mipazad baraye farda,,

delam mikhahad digar gosht nakhoram,,

digar ghaza nakhoram,,

mikhaham anghadr nakhoram ta bemiram,,,

mikhaham ,,

ama chera har bar nemishavad,,,

cheghadr az adamhaye sosot onsor bizaram,,,

cheghadr halam az khodam be ham mikhorad..

chegone ejeze midaham ke har kasi har che mikhahad begooyad,,

kash midanestand ke dar zehne mna che jaygahi darand,,,

nemigooyam biarzeshand,,,

na balke doseshan daram,,

vai kash midanestand ke negaranam

begaran az inke ba in kalamat mehre mara kam rang tar konand,,

va dar haraje del anha ra niz beforosh begozaram,,

kharidare hameye anha faramoshi khahad bod...

 

+ نوشته شده در  یکشنبه دوازدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 22:10  توسط تارا | 

hameye jomalatam in roozha be alamate soal mobadal shodeand,,,

va bozogtarin nighteye in alamate soal khode man shodeam,,,

noghte,,,

noghtei ke na oj migirada va na be harkat vadashte mishavad,,

faghat be moghtazie zaman gahi zir va gahi zebr nahade mishavad,,,

aya horof bi man mana khahand dasht??

che mayae maskharist ane ke baraye bodanaseh be man mohtaj ast...

ahang gosh midaham:

khaste shodam baske delam donbale yek bahoone gasht,,,

baske tarane khondamo barge zamoonebar nagasht,,,

zamone khili bija mikone,,,

man khodam baresh migardonam...

:D

gho midaham,,,

,ama aval be energy niz daram,,,

kasbash mikonam,,

bi farib,,

bi dorogh,,,

va bad khaham shetaft,,,

baraye barg avaz karda:)

cheghadr chero pert minevisam man:))

ama eshkal nadarad azsad bash kocholye bazigoshe ravanie daroone man:D

hame chiz dorost khahad shod..

hame chiz...

+ نوشته شده در  یکشنبه دوازدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 0:47  توسط تارا | 

harise neveshtan shodeam,,

ta pish az in angoshtanam ra ta in had teshne nadide bode bodam...

baraye che inghadr esrar darand,,?

shayad ta ghabl az in sepidiye safhei ra nadide bodand..

ehsas mikonam emrooz ra pish az in dar khab dide bodam..

shabihe film mimanad,,,

ama dide bodam,,,

in safhe ra pish az in..

ok begzarim..

kheili ham mohem nist...

mohem!!

che chizi mohem bodan  ya nabodan ra taeen mikonad,,

kodamin ghanoon,,,

?

khandeam migirad vaghri be in fekr mikonam ke shayad donya ham begoyat ke man mohem nistam,..

1_1

barabar mishavim,,

shayad ham0_0

 

+ نوشته شده در  شنبه یازدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 12:13  توسط تارا | 
hichvaght post hayam ra 2bar nemikhanam,,,

agar kalamei paso psih ast,,,

motasefam ...

dalilash inast,,,

hal baraye hal...

hamin...

 

+ نوشته شده در  شنبه یازدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 11:37  توسط تارا | 
tekrar...!!!!

che vajeye bi manai...

siahi...!

bishtar dostash daram ta khakestari ra,,,

ingone hade aghl midani ke hamin yek halat ast,,,

.

.

.

raftam baraye khodam shir avordam:d

aromam mikone,,,

ahange 6*8 gosh midam..

puke!

woooooooooooooooooooooooow

ke be chizhai be onvane mosaken ro avarde am,,,

,,,ama darigh ke inha niz alaj nistand,,

che mikhaham az zendegi??

aya in hagh ra daram ke chizi bekhaham ya na?

shayad ham zendegi mara mikhahad,,,

mikhahad ke mara be kam bekeshad,,,

ehsas mikonam gorosneash shode ast...

cheghadr in roozha khoda darad donbale sare man miayad,,,

dam be dam be man migoyad ke nashokri..

khoda!

hoseleye ghor shenidan ra nadaram,,

lotfan nasihatam nakon digar,,,

mikhaham hamingone be manam,,

ta etelae sanavi,,,

bad hargah ke khastam sedayat mikonam,,',

edameye harfhayat ra khaham shanid,,,

delam baraye hafez tang shode ast:)

kash ba oo mizistam,,,

va yek jore mey ba ham mizadim,,,

ghol midadam noshe akhar ra bar khak mirikhtam,,,

ghol midadam,,,

bayad beravam jai,,,

bayad ax begiram,,

ama nemidanam chera in chand rooz dorbinam barayam sangin shode ast...

tahamole vaznash ra nadaram,,

shayad man bish az had SABOK shode am,,,

bayad rejim begiram...

bayad az in ham sabok tar shavam...

shayad andam ba bad ham masir shavam,,

rasti agar bad mara mibord maghsad ra koja entekhab mikardam,,?!

maghsad!!!

na

man asheghe hameye rahhaye bi maghsadam,,,

anghadr beravim ke az raftan khaste shavim,,,

anghadr ke digar poshte sare khod ra nabinim,,

anghadr ke lebelaye shakheheye bide majnoni az eshgh begoiim najva konan,,,

tao..shayad bi dalil nabod ke bad ra hayate zamin midanest,,,,

ari hayat ast...

az koja shoro konam?

karam ra migoyamketab foroshi chegone jai ast?

agar az m,an beporsi migoyam noghtei baraye rahai az makan va zaman,,

ama ostad be in harfam khandid,,,

:/

mohem nist:D

oo shorash ra nadasht,,,

shayad ham man bi shoor gashteam

:D

divane amm:))

yes yes...

midanam...

divane ra ankas goyand ke donyaye khod ra darad,,

ba tamame fantezihayash,,,

man niz donyaye khakestarie khod ra daram,,

ama fantezi nadarad:D

pas divane khetab mishavam,,,

divanei vahshi,,,,

:d

maybe,,,

slam divaneye man:*

dostat daram...

khosh bash,,,

in tanha rahe sazgari ba donyast..

az kalameye tanha khosham nemiayad..

ama jaygozini barayash nadaram..

 

+ نوشته شده در  شنبه یازدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 11:36  توسط تارا | 
in bikhialie man az koja shoro shod?

chera digar barayam farghinemikonad ke khorshid betabad ya na...!

armanhayam be koja panahande shode and?

aya inghadr sarzamine fekre mn barayeshan tang bod ke be donbale makani farakh zehne khasteye mara raha kardand...

mitarsam az fardai ke az in ham bikhial tar sham,,,

engar jomalatam baraye man niz ostore shodeand,,,

bikhiale donya va adamhayash...

ama goi donya ham darad bikhiale man mishavad,,,

20 tahvile kare moghadamt daram..

yek ketab foroshi,,,

ama zehne tarahe man kooooo??

chera harche sedayash mikonam bidar nemishavad!!!

in dars ra ham khaham oftad..

cheghadr az lafze manfi bizaram,,,

be ghole madaram ke migoyad gahi saghhhet siah mishavad,,

magar na anke in man bodam ke hamishe paym avare rozhaye sepid bodam,,,

hoseleye kal kal ba ostad ra nadaram,,

begzar khial konad ke oo pirooz ast...

az pa dar avardane yek adame biramagh ke kari nadarad...

man tanha zahera hefz kardeam,,,

:))khandeam migirad ke har bar che kodakane say darad mara be  sokhre  girad...

ok jenabe ostad to ham rahat bash...

midanam ke mikhsti mara hol dahi be gofteye khodat..

ama man pahayam digar raagh nadarad,,,

kash zehnam ra kami hol midadi va na jesmam ra,,,

 

+ نوشته شده در  شنبه یازدهم شهریور 1391ساعت 10:56  توسط تارا | 
zabanam ra gaz gereftam...

dard dasht

ama yadam andakht ke hanooz hastam,,

cheghadr bad ast ke yek dard barayat yek neshane shavad,,,

angoshtanam che khob adat kardeand be az gham neveshtan,,,

ajab doroghgohaye khobi hastand vaghti ke dar chat migoyand be digari ke aram bash in niz migozarad,,,

man hasodam!!????

shayad ...

shayad az inke elaate kheili az havade ra nemidanam shaki mishavam,,,

dost nadaram hasod basham,,,

ama in sharayet ra ham dost nadaram,,,

mikhaham joda shavam az inja,,,

hata agar baraye saati andak,,,

be bikaran beravam va az an bala shayad ham az an nazdik be in siyahimaskhare bekhandam,,,

ajab bazihai rah miandazd in donya,,

halam ra beham mizanad,,

hame migoyand ,,,

va faghat migoyand,,,

dahaneshan ra chon ghari siah mibinam va zabaneshan ra chon khanjari  tiz

aya hamin ha ke migoyand az dele man khabr darand,,,

aya midanand ke emrooze man be khatere dirozi ke anha barayam sakhte and be in rang dar amade ast,,

pas bija mikonand ke az in rang shekayat mikonand,,

in sakhteye daste ananst,,

chon badbadaki shodeam ke digar hata vazidan bad ham barayash mohem nst,,,

oo hamin gosheye tango tarik ra be aeman haraj karde ast,,,,

az hamye talatom ha khaste ast,,,

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

nemikhaham in basham,,,,

mihaham oghab basham,,,

ooj begiram,,,

az ghor zadan bizaram,,,

d migoyad inha ghor nist ama hast

va h hamishe in ghorhaye mara niz dost dasht...

man faghat be yek jaraghe niyaz daram.yek jaraghe,,,

 

+ نوشته شده در  جمعه دهم شهریور 1391ساعت 21:17  توسط تارا | 
shishehaye otagham ra poshandeam,,

digar nemikhaham noor bijaze vared shavad,,,

mikhaham harimam ra tang tar konam,,,

az daroon nor biafshanam,,,

man be nore soznake to niaz nadaram,,,

man dar in gosheye tarik yaghooti daram ke talaloash kahkeshan hara niz roshan misazad,,,

man khod anra khaham yuaft,,

faght kafist peydayash konam,,

be nore to niaz nadaram,,,

kash mishod baraye ajsam niz ghalb ghael bod,,

angah tame dokmehaye kyeboarde man ghalbeshan az shedate ehsase man mitarakid,,,

har zarbe angohtanam bosei mizanand be chehreye siaheshan,,,

.

.

.

kash inja bodi,,,

kash to angoshtanam ra bose baran mikardi...

to????

che vajeye ajibi!

manzore man kodamin ast?

kist?

kojast??

nemidanam

!!

hamzade man ham aknoon dar hale che karist?

aya oo niz mostasal shpde ast?

va aya drad dar sedaye ghahghaheye khish ghote mikhorad,,,

ash ke shad bashad,,,

be sedayash niz daram,,

man an seda ra khaham shanid...

khaham shanid...

+ نوشته شده در  جمعه دهم شهریور 1391ساعت 20:53  توسط تارا | 
delam barayat tang shode ast...

baraye to ya baraye khodam nemidanam,,,

faghat midanam delam tang ast...

az hameye bodanha...

cheghadr kalamatam boye taafon midahabnd,,,

mashamam ra mazarand,,,

badam miayad az hamye atrafianam,,,

az hameye doroghha,,,

az hameye tarsha,,,

az inke karhayam ra be saligheye anha bechinam,,,

az inke be saniyehayam fekr konam,,,

sedai ra nemikhaham beshnavam,,

kash tanha va tanha sedaye to bod dar gosham...

delam avaye ab mikhahad

az farda digar tarsi nadaram,,

harche mikhahad beshavad beshavad,,,

man inja miastam,,

ghavitar az hamishe...

inbar ,man farmanravai mikonam,,,

man man khaham bod...

taje saltanat ra khod bar sar khaham gozasht,,,

shahzaadeye bibadilie in borhe khaham bod,,

basast digar esarat...

mikhaham man khalegh basham,,,

be to che noazist andam ke man khod naz hastam,,,

inbar to niaz bash,,,

 

+ نوشته شده در  جمعه دهم شهریور 1391ساعت 20:48  توسط تارا | 
yakhchale khaneye ma behtarin doste manast,,

hargah ke az ghar biroon miravam behtarin bahaneye manast..

baraye anke hanooz yadam bashad ke man niz ozvi az in khane hastam...

darash ra baz mikionam,,,

negahi motefakerane be joz jozash miandazam,,

cheghadr dostash daram rasti...

va bad ba ham taamoli mikonim,,

va mashverat...

be entekhabe oo gahi chizi ra barmidaram ta kamam ra talkh konad,,

oo tanha kasist ke be man nemigoyad chagh mishavi...

oo tanha kasist ke midadnad delam tang ast..

oo tanha kasist ke midanad khordan gahi barayam tafrihast va gahi tanbih...

oo tanha kasist ke zaegheye mara kamel midanad...

va hamishe ab ham darad baraye zehne teshneye man..

negaham nemikonad hengame khordan,,

...

emshab mohayam ra kotah kardam..

kheili ziad...

shayad 1cm,,,

az chehreye jadidam khosham nemiayad,,

delam moye meshkie boland mikhast,,,

ama ...

mikhaham khodam ra azar daham,,,

anghadr ke zajr kosh shavam,,,

anghadr ke roye khak bioftam va ba sedaye bpland zar bezanam,,

delam tarahom nemikhahad,,

mikhaham mara dar hale ehtezare roh bebinand,,

va bedanand ke in modat man man nabodam..

dar poshte hameye an khandeha ke didand,,

dar poshte an hame az khod gozashtanha..

dar poshte an hame enerji gozashtanha,,,,

man faghat delam mikhahad chon kermi bar roye khak be khod bepicham,,,

khaki shavam,,,'

va abd ke hameye geryehayam ra kardam

boland shavam,,

khakhayam ra betekanam,,,

va baz be masir edame daham,,,

mikhaham khak hara betekanam,,,,

ama ghabl az an mikhaham khaki shavam,,,,

khaki,,,

+ نوشته شده در  پنجشنبه نهم شهریور 1391ساعت 21:51  توسط تارا | 
khaste shodam az in dost dashtan goftanaye alaki,,,

az inai ke poshte kalamat penhanan,,

delam faghat ye negah mikhad,,

ye kalame az jense didan na az jense goftan,,

cheghad sakhte ke vaghti dari harf mizani bet began sabr kon aval harfe man tamom she va bad to begoo...

koh,,,

farda koh,,,

nemiram ama

man gharo bishtar dost daram,,

ghare man otaghame,,,

pas inja mimonam,,,

mikham bekhabam,,

ke dg zehnam nabashe inja,,

harchand ke toye khab ham aramesh nadaram...

dost!

koshan pas...?!

man bodam hamishe vasashon ama ona lan kojan!

nemikham bashan,,,

be nabodaneshon bishtar adat daram ta bodaneshon,,,

ghobar!

che jadeye bientehaist in zaman,,

magar na inke hal va gozashte va ayande har 3yeki hastand..

pas ba in osaf har 3 ra be fuck dadam,..

ham gozashte va ham hal...pas ayande ham ingone bashad,,.

az mohabat bizaram..

delam andaki tanafor mitalabad,,,

mikhaham bad basham,,,

badtarin ensan,,,

ke digar hichkas be man nagoyad dostat daram...

yek lahze dostat daram ra miforosham be yek omr goftane tanafoor...

man abadiat ra mikhaham...hataagar az jense tanafor bashad,.na havas ra...

 

+ نوشته شده در  پنجشنبه نهم شهریور 1391ساعت 21:41  توسط تارا | 
emrooz cehghadr delam gerefte ast...

tanha va tanha otagham ra mikhaham..

otagh ke na..

inja markaze seghle zamin ast...

ravanam azadi mitalabad..

ama az daricheye otagham hame chi ziba tar ast...

shabihe kabki shodeam ke az hayahoye biroon tanha sarmaye barf ra mitalabad,,,

ah ke cheghadr inja sard ast...

tanam milarzad...

az sedaye dandanhayam ke bar ham mikhorand mitarsam...

yek ava basast baraye aramesh.,.

saye ha niz mara tanha nemigozarnd,,

in birahmist ya lotf?nemidanam..

in rozha ashkam che zod be donbale rahe farari migardad..

khaste shodeam az bas ke be donbale rahi digar ferestadam zehnam ra..

ke mabad ashki berizad..

khaste shodam az bas ke havasash ra part kardam ke be aghoshi baraye tanha gerye kardan va sar bar shanesh gozashtan fekr nakonad,,

pahayam cheghadr khaste shodand,,,

tabe sanginie roham ra digar nadarand,,

zehnam mikhahad monfajer shavad,,,

delam mikhahad anghadr eshba konam khodam ra ke az daroon tamame donya ra bala biavaram,,,

anghdr bokhoram ta beterkam:))

ey khoda:d

aya to anrooz in rooze mara mididi?

inke inja cheghadr aghoshe tora mitalabam..

in sharte esgh nabod

!

magar in dar vasfe to nabod ke..dar azal patoye hosnat ze tajali dam zad..eshgh peyda shodo atash be hame alam zad,,

sayeye mashogh agar oftad bar ashegh che shod...

ma be oo mohtaj bodim oo be ma moshtagh bod,,,

in shogh e residan ast ya nefrat az raftan,,,

in ra ham nemidanam...

otagham..

laptop//

yeki livan shir ghahveye talkh..

va yek medad

va ye kaghaz,,,

hamin mara bas ast baraye bodan,,

hameye donya baraye anha ke mikhahand,,,

man be in kam razi nistaaaaaaaaaaam naaaaaaaaa

amaa

amaaaaaaa

amaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

in ra be hameye an ashob ha tarjih midaham,,,

rohe man amokhte ast ke chegone bi seda faryad bekeshad,,,

hichkas ra nemiazarad,,

faght gahi kar mishavad,,

gahi hata sedaye nafashaye khod ra nemitavanad beshnavad,,

nafas!!!

aya man nafas mikesham va ya in tekrare modame roozmaregihast...

kash man nafas nemikeshidam,,

shayad az in hava kasi estefadeye behtari mikard...

delam mikhahad yek nafar begoyad ke aram bash,,,

begoyad ke in niz migozarad,,,

begoyad ke tobaraye in bodan nisti,,,

shayad an bodan behtar ast,,,

az mazi khasteam...

az mozare khasteam,,

delam yek hale sade mikhahad...

goshhayam mohtaj shodeand be shanidane kalamati ke anha ra har roz najva mikonad az daroon,,

tanam mohtaj shode ast,,,

mikhaham inja faryad bezanam ke ari..

man ham khaste am ,,,,

majaz..

che donyaye zibai...

ama heif ke aseman hame ja hamin  rang ast...

lajevardi...

gahi abi..

hagi sepid,,,

va gahi tofani...

ama heif ke saram dard mikonad,,

nemikhaham anra be bala bargardanam,,

hamin robe ro ke na hamin paeen khob ast,,,

az jomalatam bizaram,,

man in nabodeam...

man ghavi bodam..

salha be hame rahe aseman ra neshan midadam,,,

20 salam ast ama

goi hezaran sal ast ke in masir ra peymodeam,,,

enteha kojast??

kasi midanad?

khodaya rozi to be man gofti ke baham ghayam bashak bazi konim

to chashm gozashti

va man az behest be donya farar kardam

be donbale jai baraye penhan shodan az chashmane to,,,

ama khoada

man goooom shodeam,,,

inja digar sedaye khandeye man va to nist,,,

inja sedaye jigh ast.,..

az tariki mitarsam,,

jai ke noor nist...

chashmanam darad be tariki adat mikonad,,,

az in bishtar mitarsam,,,

adat....

adat be tanha bodan,,,,

cheghadr sakht ast ke bekhahi ama nashavad,,,

az mar mitarsam,,,

az khorshid mitarsam...

az hajme noor mitarsam..

az ari goftan mitarsam,,,

az bodan mitarsam...

az rah raftan bizaram,,,

az dar jam bodan bizaram,,,

man in nabodeam,,

mikhaham khodam basham,,,

ghor nemizanam,,

na ...

midanam hameye nemathayat ra...

bodanam ra,,,

bodaneshan ra,,,

ama hal halam khosh nist,,

tabib mikhaham,,

baraye zakhm hayam,,,

chheghadr dark chocolate dost daram,,

cheghadr az khandidan ..boland khandidan khosham miayad,,,

cheghadr rah raftan zire baran ra asheghane midanam,,

cheghadr paeez ra dost daram,,,

va bad ra,,,

bad ke mehrbantarin ast...

vaghti ke rohao tanam ra dar aghosh mikeshad,,

va ba dastane sardash soratam ra minavazad,,

bose baranam mikonad,,

midanam,.

bi hich menati,,

va man az tabe in eshgh hamishe bimar mishavam,,,

bad,,,

 

cheghadr delam in rooza gerefte ast...in roozha,,, 

+ نوشته شده در  پنجشنبه نهم شهریور 1391ساعت 20:25  توسط تارا | 
kalamatam shabihe pilei shodan ke vase raha shodan be laghzeshe negahi bar roye khodeshon niyaz daran,,,,

aya baram mohem hastesh ke kasi kalamatam ro bekhone ya na!!

NEMIDONAM...

danestan,,,

daghdagheye jadidi az zendegie man,,,

be kodamin rah chenin shetaban,,

kash mishod ghargh shod dar daryaye bikarane nadanestanha..

shayad ingone ikami rahattar separi mishod in chand sabahe omr,,,

kami pish miravam va baz payam ra aghab mikesham,,,

ari man tarso hastam az danestan ham mitarsam,,,

az bodan,,,

az inke bedani ke hanooz donya donya donya nemidani..

kalamye donya ra dost nadaram...

chera zatash az fana miayad...

delam ab mikhahad,,

zehnam digar ba oxijen nafas nemikeshad,,

mikhaham abshosh dashte basham,..

ghargh shavam,,,

dar tamame abie bikaran,,,

karan !!

delam bikaran mikhahad,,,

ehsase khafaghan mikonam ...

delam mikhahad az inja ta bikaran parvaz konam,,,

ooops..yadam nabod ke bikaran (ta ) nadarad,,,

man delam mikhahd in ghaleb ra beshkanam,,

man man ra,,,

in roozha ghatele birahme man be fekre inast...man man ra bokoshad,,,

ama be rasti kodamyek gonah kar khahd bod,,

dar kodamin dadgah,,,

aya inja kasi hast ke mara begoyad be kodamin samt bayad harkat kard,,

delam ghahvei talkh mikhahad,,

talkhiash tamame vojodam ra be kam bekeshad,,

delam neshane mikhahad,,,,

yek neshane kafist...

tanha yek neshane,,,

+ نوشته شده در  پنجشنبه نهم شهریور 1391ساعت 12:53  توسط تارا |